In the Name of Allah, the Most High
I’ve been through life, 18 years that is. Not long, but certainly not short. Alhamdulilah.
One thing I’ve been searching for has been a close friend. A lot of those who may know me and read this may be turned off. I have friends(some of whom I simply adore), just not close ones–once I have by my side all the time. If that offends you, I’m not going to apologize for my feelings. Their either older or younger. But does it matter….
However, I am not going to blow off those wonderful people I have met. They are simply enriching breathes of fresh air. The only downfall is that I can’t have that breeze with me all that time. I can’t have those visions, honest advices, ageless wisdoms with me all the time.
Perhaps it could be me. They say ‘you are who you attract. Well, if that is to hold true….. all I can say is that I’m trying to be a good person.
What is it that I want? People who are like minded. I’ve met inspirational people, but we can’t connect. I’ve met vibrant people, but we can’t sustain a conversation. People who are like minded to me are comfortable to be around. That doesn’t mean if I share my secrets with you, I’ll be comfortable. But does that also mean I am not inspiration and vibrant, I hope not.
I’ve noticed that time can add value to relationships, but it often only adds those that were strong to begin with.
It’s hard to have crazy-zainy-amazingly mind-blowing ideas, and have no close people to share them with. Again, it’s a comfort thing. I’m not going to just annouce my ideas to people, just because.
…so sometimes, wondering in the future, I drift. I romanticize what could be rather than what isn’t.
I have this hope that Allah(SWT) has been reserving my best friend for me–somewhere, somehow, I know that I will meet them in the future, inshaAllah.
….would it be too far-fetched to say it’ll be my future huband? I don’t think so. I just pray.
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